Today is the LAST day I will EVER have of High school Classes (hopefully).... My entire life I have been dreaming of this moment. This moment was the only idea sometimes that would get me through a extra long day at school with that awful teacher who seemed to like to pick on me and me alone. It was the thought of being free which helped form my outlook on life, freedom, and my exhausting need to be independent. However, now that I am here, my body twitches with the idea that I will not succeed or achieve what I need, or if I even know what I want. What if I just can't cut it? What if I don't meet the right people or go to the right events? What if I don't make it to school and spend my life in a restaurant (which, don't get me wrong, is a hard and trying job, but not what I want to do). What if when I get to where I want to go I screw up royally? Or what if I do not even WANT to be doing what I spend another 4 years studying? What if I take the easy road and my dad is forever disappointed in me, even if he wont show it until he is depressed?
Those are the things that float in my head every time I make a decision. The thing is, the only thing I want to focus on is enjoying myself, but to do that I need to be true to myself and work for what I want.
Saying all of that I feel like I haven't done so bad these past 5 years. I have achieved a fair amount, I have made lots of connections, I have a vision and a way to get where I want to be in another 5 years, and I have great people in my life.
So thanks to everyone supporting me, pushing me to strive to do my best, and loving me even when I made stupid mistakes.
Good luck everyone, and remember, Strive To Be Happy.
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